Eyes Wide Shut

Do you ever wish you could say something to someone and they would just sit and listen?
No judging or misconstruing ...just understanding.
Sometimes in life we walk away from things that cause us negative feelings or emotions, we become victims of our own ideals and stupid wants, our hearts ask us loudly to just take a good look at a situation with eyes wide open & get a grip  But when you have those deep feelings for a person it's never that easy.

Sometimes those people who you want to see your very best qualities just seem to- not.  It's difficult and frustrating, like everyone in the room loving your meal except the food critic in the corner- the one you most want to impress and notice you.

So when it's a harsh mix of these two- where do you place yourself? You, for some stupid reason, adore this person beyond any reason, they are the one that makes you get those butterflies, your heart leaping when you see their name pop up, you trip over words and everything you say seems foolish to you and everything they say seems to make perfect sense...you want their time, you want their affection and over all you want them to feel the same way. This one person who brings you so much happiness and makes you feel light and like SL isn't the grim place you thought it was.

What if this person is toxic to you? a game player and a deeply insecure person who gets some kind of kick out of making people unhappy and frustrated?  twisting each of your words and making you feel less than on an almost daily basis.  Those people are out there.
But the hardest part over all is when that person in your eyes is so amazingly wonderful and the day you walk away is just one long sentence of thinking about them every...single...day.

Love carelessly.